As a woman, I think I have a great capacity to have charity and genuine love for others. This is a goal that I'm finding is a weakness, due to insecurities in myself. A feeling of an incapacity of having great conversation, or a worry that I will start to gossip, or not meeting expectations, or what if the kids get too rowdy. But mostly, it's just a lack of energy that I feel justified in not spending the extra time with other women. This sounds a lot worse then it is, I don't think about it a lot, but I listened to Elder Andersen's talk today and thought of the service that President Monson has rendered for years. He genuinely loves, and takes the extra effort/energy for someone he may not know that well, but ends up knowing very well. Sometimes I feel like only taking the extra effort for people close to me, but I want to do better. I want to share that extra love with people around me, because so many have showed that to me. I have a large extended family that has shown me more love than most people receive in a lifetime. It's time to give back. I know that a lot of my service is taking care of my children, while Ben fulfills all of his duties right now, but there are many women in my neighborhood that I can love. I don't feel a need to start a group, but to just show genuine love, take the extra effort, and start some friendships. I will probably find that I needed these friendships more than I realized.
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